I've learned that no matter what happens, or how bad it seems today, life does go on, and it will be better tomorrow. You gain strength, courage, and confidence from every experience in which you really stop to look, fear in the face
No matter how much you love someone even if they are family there are times when all you can do is let go, hold on to the wonderful memories and move forward. Too much conflict or drama ruins any relationship so you have to put your peace of mind first.
You said you loved how I looked at you... does she look at you the same way? Does she see deep into your soul? Does she know what you're thinking before you say it? I think you're just afraid to face reality. I think you know it will never go anywhere so you have fun while you can and then move on to the next one when she finds someone else. Why do you push away the ones who love you most!?!